why do you care now when you didnt before
is it only convenient for you now
you know cause i would hate for you to be doing anything because its convenient for anyone other than you.
remember that shit?
remember when i cried and screamed my head off begging for you to love me again?
….remember what you told me?
instead of using love as the crutch that had always been there to get us through
you kicked it up from under the both of us…
because YOU were ready to walk alone.
…i crawled for years eyes full of tears
like a walking, talking adult forced back into prematurity.
I never understood the importance of those abilities until they were gone.
depending on you for everything because of the mind set that i was placed in.
i gave you so much so i just knew that loyalty would always be there.
but i learned that every word isn’t always its meaning.
and each kiss doesnt come from the heart.
i learned that you can disguise yourself even when love is all over you.
you can swim to shore even when the waves of love are strong enough to take you under.
why dont you love me? why dont you need me?
—— lost files. no clue when i wrote this.
i always wondered if i ever caught hold to his heart strings, the mystery of him will always intrigue me"